The woman slumps in the cockpit chair, rubbing her face with the heel of her palm, voice graveled with creeping exhaustion and accent fluctuating when she speaks.
...it's been months, hasn't it? What's been going on.... kriff, where t' start?
When a mommy Miraluka and a daddy Miraluka love each other very much... *the sarcastic tone of voice is readily apparent before she stops* It's a lot harder to keep away from the places I find I miss - that brief stint on Coruscant when the Barge's fate was sealed? I'd head back to even a Coruscanti spice den if I thought I could get away with being there too long. That last trip to the Senate's gardens, just chatting... Tython I always thought made me itch, feet too long on the ground, but a day or two in the mountains always was soothing. Half the galaxy is closed off right now and I've sunk far enough in covers and lies that unraveling them all would take too much time, expose too much. I practically live on Nar now - it's always been comfortable for me but sometimes the moon is too confining and I want to go elsewhere and where do I have to go now?
Xynea and I met - briefly? - on Tython. And again on Nar, chatting, She's like me I think, but more lonely - she left the Order for love and duty to a promise. We just... hit it off I guess and she's - kin. I don't... know much about my kin. Or race. A fact which Kalrook made exceptionally clear. But even admitting that to Xynea brought... acceptance. She doesn't ask why I lie - why I hide - what I do. She accepts. And... I call her sister. She calls me sister. She wants me to meet her family- to go...home with her.
Kalrook.... her Master finding us was nothing short of exceptional luck. I grew up on stories of Luka sene - and she lives up to those stories. *a bitter laugh* I wonder if she'd find that a compliment? Kalrook wants me to go back home too, but her reason is... I'd forgotten that Luka Sene have a sort of right of extradition. She thinks I need re-education. She's... everything my Ma- *breaks off suddenly, the recording silent for a long span before it starts up again*
I'm looking at taking a trip in a week, if I can get things taken care of for a little while, long enough for a few days. *the recorder catches the woman twirl a spike between her fingers* Once Xynea is safe. Once I check on Pad'wan Torlem and distract Rax on to a better bounty. Once I make sure Jalira is all right - that Darnell isn't picked up by Tichiorius as soon as Xynea is out of his company. I still need to find this Pride of his and figure out who I can get information to so that he doesn't get his war. Because ... a full on war, Sith and Jedi... will cost so many lives. *a dry, sour chuckle* And that's not even the start of it all, either.
Enigma. The Senator. I need to ...I need to be able to get help from the Jedi to destroy that leech once and for all. I... can't. I need more places to research. What I knew - what I know, how I know... it didn't work and it was too close to- *white lipped, she scrubbed her face again, hunching over and fingers lacing together* We need to capture that hunter, still, and I hinted to Ranai that our plan would be risky after what I learned. Still waiting on Renai's promised report but I haven't given her - them - mine yet on what happened when I confronted Xan's alter. I should. I've lied to Xan about it, to put him at ease. But... they need to know what I found out. Then we need to plan. I need to get over my desire to strangle, throttle, or shoot Ranai too - it's making working together strained, at best.
Short list, yeah? I still need to find that Sith who knows Torlem is alive and see what promise I can extract to ensure he's not at risk. Once Xynea is free - maybe she and I can get back to trying to teach - in reason - Jallira and Torlem more Sight, control. I still want to find her Master and give him a comeuppance for how poorly he prepared his Padawan! No shielding? So unprotected and then let loose to the world - and so... uneducated. Explaining biology to a Padawan and a Jedi was- *she chuckled* At least Ahn'kahir took that final burden. I've never heard a voice so stiff and dignified trying to explain sexual appeal. Need to figure out who's hired me to investigate Mychae and why and see if I can't guess their game. I know I'm forgetting something, too...
I wonder who's handiwork landed the tracker on me though. Someone. All they got off it was puttering 'round Nar, a trip to Mos Ila and a trip to Ilum. Got the thing shut off last night after meeting with Tichorius.
I should hit Zach up, and send those job details over to Mikita too. Zach never finished giving me job information... Mikita's never been by to pick up work like she said she wanted.
*she started to get up before she stopped, sitting back down* ...I remembered what I'd forgotten. I'd thought about finishing the security system I'd started before leaving the Marran. I don't think I will. Haven't heard anything more about Ani's kids but I keep checking in case I do... I think anything else I find out - if I do - I'll send to Phylok. It works better that way anyways. I can't afford to let folks know I'm still trying to look out for them all.
I wonder if the Fifth Column is going to rise like the Barge did. If so.... well, I'll try to look at them when it comes up. And anything else I can hear about, find out about... I've managed to keep some of my people from taking some contracts. It's a start. Now to just build on it. And not get found out. And to keep my temper under better control. And... *chuckling, reaching over to shut off the recorder* Right, who am I kidding? I've got too much to do.
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